Saturday, March 20, 2010

I love Ethan!


My life gets boring once the 2nd semester started. Well...no more weekends outings =(
But I promised myself I'll go on a road trip soon after I got my experiment results. haha otherwise how to ask for leave? (PS: Learn from Dr Ethan Lai)

haha oh speaking about Ethan!! I have this weird attraction towards guys named Ethan. haha I mean it sounds so manly and suave. Just that no Ethan is Ethan Ruan Jing Tian =(

I am so engrossed in 'My Queen' Bai Quan Nu wang that I sat still from 12pm - 9pm with eyes glued to my computer screen.

How can someone like Lucas actually exist?!! Darn! All these drama series makes me believe that such 100% exist So rare to find cute+handsome in a package, HOT BOD, nice fashion sense- A guy to die for (ok, maybe not so serious)

But if I am Wu Shuang, is there any reason I should say no except the stupid 8 yr age gap?! Hell NO! I'll pounced on him on first sight!!! hahaha so scary yea? But at least he is an eye candy and I have strict QC. Unlike our local director who takes on ANYBODY who has a female sexual organ (its crude to just say vagina right?)

Men are visual animals, girls too (well, I am.) Anyway, I cannot tolerate guys cheating on their spouse/gf/ anyone whom they said 'I LOVE YOU' too with those doe-looking face. I told sharkie to be careful. If he is caught cheating, I promise he'll not be able to go to the washroom for months. I will not be like those TV drama who cries and begs with their eyes raining. Save me that. Haha anw, he knows what I'm capable of. ^^

I would rather you come forth and slap me with the truth than to backstab me behind my back. Nobody likes to be backstabbed right?

Sometimes I feel the society is so unfair to women. Well, some women are really weak.
Why should women shed all these tears? Endure all these, needless to say bear them children only to lose their figure and consequently, their husband.

I have this saddistic mindset: If guys can, why can't girls? Sometimes I want to try cheating, to see why doesn't conscience prick them? To see why they can sleep at ease with the person whom they'd cheated on? Most importantly, to spin lies with a loving face... I wanted to see what is so thrilling behind all these.... (Haha don't worry, I'm still faithful to my hammerhead. I mean I'm only curious, and only when you've been in their shoes can you understand the true feeling behind it) Science facts are only for references.

Well actually my life isn't really that boring.... I go out on weekends either w friends or zw, I have nice dinner outside but no pictures. =(

Lab is fun recently that I know this korean guy who is a freshman. He is 1986 too. Well...he is the only one who talks to me on MSN in English! It is nice to have a korean friend who doesn't shy away from me just because I speaks english =(

I realise Vincent is a very mature guy. I hope to have more java chocolate drinks talks!! haha =D Thanks to his pointers I decided to take a step back and think. Well...thanks to myself too.
I mean hey! I am an egoistic girl too! For me to step back is like asking me to do physics.

So much pressure build up. Just like a pressure cooker. It exploded. I've thought about many things- yes, including ending this pressure. But somehow I feel that I should not escape and if it is really what I want, then I should work hard for it (haha, him sounds weird here, so I used it). Nothing comes cheap. The harder you strive for your goals, the more you'll cherish them. Even if it doesn't work out in the end, I will not regret. (ok, I'll feel sad but time heals)

The worst thing in my life is to have regrets I cannot amend.

Nobody can predict the future, so why not enjoy today to the fullest?

Just like how I enjoy Ethan Ruan to the fullest for 9 hours! Gosh!! Am I so free and bored?!!!

Friday, March 12, 2010

Saturation point



Too much happiness that it has saturated.

Too much tears that I can't believe it myself.

Too numb to feel anything.

Suffocation.

Through all the bad times and good times, you were only there for the latter.

Its time for the water to stop boiling & the ice to melt...

When everything come to naught, we will learn to treasure more.