May be a wrong word, a wrong action, or even silence could trigger the low boiling point which I believe is due to my genotype. Forever changing- character, plans and mood...
I should be happy I'd gotten straight As for my 2nd semester. But this happiness lasted for only 24hrs. Recently I'm feeling suffocated and I need to go away. I don't know where.
Just somewhere.
My mind pictured all the flaws of people close to me. Its mind wrecking to try and forgive by comparing faults with merits. I've did that most of my recent years and am tired. Mentally.
I could not rely or be dependent on anyone. even for just a teeny weeny moment. I thought I found a shoulder to cry or rely on but reality is cruel.
I don't like pretending or not being able to be myself. I am thankful that all these past incidences made me grow and be a more patience person.
Mr/Mrs Right is someone who grow with you...but
I feel that I am growing alone. I can't help but take those words to heart.
Some things are easy to forget while some stay for life.
Its not 100% now... its just oh wells I don't know.
I just hate Adam and Eve.
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