Volatile

Instead of saying I'm petty, I coined a new term for my character: V-O-L-A-T-I-L-E

May be a wrong word, a wrong action, or even silence could trigger the low boiling point which I believe is due to my genotype. Forever changing- character, plans and mood...

I should be happy I'd gotten straight As for my 2nd semester. But this happiness lasted for only 24hrs. Recently I'm feeling suffocated and I need to go away. I don't know where.

Just somewhere.

My mind pictured all the flaws of people close to me. Its mind wrecking to try and forgive by comparing faults with merits. I've did that most of my recent years and am tired. Mentally.

I could not rely or be dependent on anyone. even for just a teeny weeny moment. I thought I found a shoulder to cry or rely on but reality is cruel.

I don't like pretending or not being able to be myself. I am thankful that all these past incidences made me grow and be a more patience person.

Mr/Mrs Right is someone who grow with you...but

I feel that I am growing alone. I can't help but take those words to heart.

Some things are easy to forget while some stay for life.

Its not 100% now... its just oh wells I don't know.

I just hate Adam and Eve.

May

I dust my blog and realise however deserted, my memories are still kept...

Alrighty! Enough with the emo. I have been keeping a calender on my desk since I started working in A* and write down daily activities. It started off as just a daily reminder to keep check my appointments with friends and of course, due to my non-renewable brain cells. But now, it has become a diary of what happens within a yr. It serves well to rekindle my memories as I am really not diligent in diary keeping.

Looking back in May.....

1) Caught Ironman II and went to Seoul International Food Fair with Desmond, Ines, Inas, Vince and zw. A sunny spring with loads of multi-national food and people.

2) Played my first bball in Hangang. I always feel best when I perspire.

3) I permed my hair! haha! I only live once right?! It costs only 40,000KRW. Not bad though my friends were shocked and I told them I had an explosion in the lab

4) Amelia (Su ann's friend) came to Seoul alone and we met up. Initially it felt weird since I've never met her and what should I talk to her about? haha but it turns out all fine. She's as chirpy as I was and man! She stands out. Among the throngs of ppl in Itaewon, you can spot her. That is stand out. Not to mention she received many requests for a drink or chill out. I super love her dressing style. Cool and chic!

5) Went to Lantern festival with Amelia, Des, Ines and Vince. Zw went to China. They had a major celebration for Buddha's birthday =D

6) Happily I bought flowers from SNU, dressed in my best and made a 2hrs trip to Incheon airport to welcome zw back. But his flight was cancelled. I know I can't blame anybody but it felt stupid and frustrating to carry flowers to & fro only to get your hope dashed. Try pouring ice water on me during Winter. I expect more than 'what to do? You go home lo' Ok, I must contain the fire within me. Dam it.

7) Organized a rafting trip in Inje Gangwon-do. Proceed to Sorak mountain and stayed the night there. Seafood aplenty!! Too bad no seafood lovers except me =(

Nothing much except that I did my first lab meeting presentation. I was so stressed the entire week before that I stayed in lab till 1030pm and my mood was so bad for those past weeks.

I flared up no reason. I am not confident of myself. I have many doubts. I hate this!

But anyway, it's over. May I have a good year ahead =)