Spring Thoughts

So much has happened. Everything will subside...eventually.

Yes, I should be studying as my mid-term is next tues. Hate it! Biochemistry!! =X

Zw went to meet June & Julia for a day trip to Yongin Everland. If not for my exam, I would have went =( My only memory of that is Year 2000...

Cooked Ottogi's pancake for breakfast and it was nice (well, at least I like it). Better than other brands I have tried. Ottogi is their trusted Korean brand for 7 decades....Good quality assured!

Hm... busy with work, outing with singapore friends who came for tour, study, experiments and quarrels... Yes.. I'm feeling moody these days.

You know its like..one fine day you plopped on the chair and suddenly feel everything's not right? I feel ugly, I feel fat, I feel poor, I feel nothing's working, I feel stressed, I feel nobody understand, I feel like I just wana crawl out and disappear. I don't usually have such times. It comes once in a blue moon.

I feel I don't belong anywhere, everywhere on this Earth.

Don't you guys feel this sometimes?

I smile, I laugh, I gossip, I pretend.... At times its too tiring I just want to be true...But the burden of my emotions fell on people closest to me.

I threw my temper and drove myself to a corner, literally. A wall, a fortress so safe I feel I'm excellent at construction. Its time to come out of my war zone and discard other's opinion of me.

I admit my volatile temper has caused hurt to others but it was an emotional roller coaster for me too.... except with no safety assurance... All I depend on was my hippocampus to create a physiological equilibrium so I don't get flung out and killed. At times when I thought the ride was over, it started again....

But it was also this roller coaster that took me to Seoul, that allow me to know you, but sadly you'll be part of the ride too...

Like a chronic inflammation, leading bad feelings to metastasize and poison the once innocent mind. The immune cells, they serve to protect but they don't realise sometimes they hurt the innocent bystanders. Too caught up in their own pursuits, they fail to notice the normal cell changing...a phenotypic environment... A constant struggle.

Thank you to you for listening to me. Nobody will ever understand somebody, not even mothers' whose umbilical cord is attached to yours for 9 months.

With a scissors, the outsider cuts the bonded cord in one swift motion.

Is that why babies cry? The action of departing from the womb to face the polluted world....

When I was young, I want to grow up fast. Lipsticks, high heels, mum's clothes.

Now, I want a time machine. Toys, stroller, love....

Life is an ironic, isn't it?

~ The most beautiful things in Life are transient. That is why Life herself is short...~