Naksongdae & Sadang

Thanks for all your concern but I am FINE. haha I am not getting into any depression or emotionally unstable. Just that sometimes I tend to dwell deeper into matters. So untypical of Pei ye right? Well...even coins have 2 sides...needless to say homo sapiens. ^^

Ok! Today was another BUSY day. I'm so tired and irritated whenever I follow my senior's experiment with the bangla. Key word: BANGLA.

1. Tired because its repetition of WESTERN BLOT & cell culture!! I have done cell culture for 2yrs++++!!! And they like to classify me and the bangla into 1 catergory- Freshies with NO lab experiment =(

Why don't I tell them I know? I did.

But I did not want to come off as arrogant so I just followed them. Btw! Their tissue culture are all grown in petri dishes and they don't wear gloves. Nothing wrong with not wearing gloves just that spraying Ethanol directly onto your palm makes it SO DRY. I WILL wear glove if I start my own project. I don't want any skin problem at the end of 2 yrs.

Western blot, cell harvesting, drug treatment. I have done all of those. I always feel like sleeping and I REALLY HATE it when they treat me like a NOOB who has not done lab before. The way they conduct experiment is so RIGID. I must follow the PATTERN of scraping. Wth. Arrangement of tubes have to be 'pretty' and I think thats why they do things v slowly. Duno is meticulous or inefficient. Its a fine line.

I dislike ppl doing things slow. Its suffocating to WATCH.

And! The bangla alwys yak and yak SHIT to me. Telling me how WONDERFUL it is to learn from the senior when he is not present most of the time leaving me to do most of the work, how ORGANIZED the senior is when her table is obviously MESSY, how he can cast western gels w/o leakage when in fact, he has NOT done it before.

BLANK STARE. haha come on, imagine my face. Wide-eyed with no expression. haha isn't it hilarous? I should learn from my sis the twitch of the eyebrows. Tt'll be PURRRPACT!

I'll make him feel like he's talking to the wall with 2 rolled-up eyes.

1030am

Cell culture- btw its only aliquoting FBS! I can do that for 50 tubes and in less than 30mins. They use pipet and must ROTATE the bottle in a SPECIFIC MANNER. I almost fainted. Too rigid. I wonder if their brain are solid or semi-solid. They need to heat inactivate the FBS and follow a LONG SOP- overnight btw. Don't you just dump it into 56 celcius for 30mins?! Anyway, I don't think they even know this process is Heat inactivation.

PS: I am not hating my seniors. I like her. Its just the way koreans do things. It really pisses me off. That's why my face will turn SUPER BLACK during those times and I will be super silent- no smile no talk.

11am- Conference

Adding oil to fire, I was really ravenous beccoz the conference ended 12pm! AND! Lunch was HORRIBLE.

My stomach GROWLED during the seminar..so embaressing. And I'm thinking about cutlets, beef soup, MEAT MEAT MEAT and when we arrived at the dormitory canteen....

The menu states:

1. Sundae soup with rice (excuse me, this sundae has NO MEAT. Only glutinous rice stuffed into the pig's skin like thing)

2. Vegetable bibimbap to be mixed with rice. ( Pls notice the word VEGE)

WHERE IS THE GOLGI?!!! ME & MY FREN WERE SPEECHLESS. Obviously we bought option 2. After my 'pig in the stomach' experience with pochangmacha's sundae, I'll never eat sundae other than in restuarants, I swear. And I really don't like it- unless there is a famine.

1230PM- Finish meal. Notice my super lightning speed. 12pm-1230pm inclusive of driving, parking, getting food, returning utensils. Haha I'm truely amazed and certainly don't enjoy any min of it!

So, after the meatless & conversational-less lunch, my fren & I decided to go for cakes, ice creams & coffee to make ourselves feel better. BUT! My senior dragged me to follow her western expt agn =(

1-4pm Experiment. My eyes were half-opened. >.<

Finally I managed to sneak out with my fren, ok her name is Lijia, to cafe house! Yipee! I wore my coat & the Korean-ABC is so KPO.

''Why are you wearing coat?''

''Because I am cold.'' And off I went.

Ba po ya.

4-530pm. Tea time n relax. And we spot our senior strolling with a guy holding hands. So sneaky! N she claim she dun haf bf...so romantic.. the scenery ard SNU is so nice. I also want a nam ja chin gu!!! Give me hyun bin- lookalike!

Dinner was fantastic! We went to Naksongdae to eat BBQ galbi and fatty pork and went to Sadang to buy Krispy Kreme. Hm...I bought....a pair of shoes :(

Ok, the shoe is really cute and it has padding so can keep my feet warm and not very expensive and...its staring at me :(

And back home I went. What a full day.

Full of emotions.

This blog is the old me right? haha =D Maybe eating & shopping is really my therapy =)

PS: Purchase groceries from GS supermarket with value above KRW20,000 & they'll home deliver FOC!! Service is so good.

Thoughts

Busy from morning till now. 3pm. Followed my senior for her project and ate lunch only at 230pm. Almost fainted.

Sometimes I rather be busy as time pass faster and random thoughts won't flood me....

My seniors are treating me better as we get to know each other 'better'. Not much in depth conversation but they will ask me to join them for food, lunch and attempt to chat with me...However our conversation cannot last beyond 5 sentences. I really hate myself at times for not being able to speak their language. I'm learning... Sometimes I wonder what if by the end of 2yrs I am able to communicate with them but I had to leave? Or...would I leave?

But I knew I have to. I miss my grandparents and I'm worried about their health too...Already in their 80s, time is a very crucial factor.

I made sacrifices but I do not want regrets.

I will not sacrifice my family for my own goals.

The wall I created or rather you created between us is very hard for me to break it down. I tried my best...I miss the olden times.... Its tiring being an actor.

Truth tucked away in the deepest corner of my brain which I cant even erase.

Chronic inflammation...

I can't seem to describe the feeling when I receive the email except, disappointment.

''Money comes before everything''.

I used to think otherwise, but circumstances forced the truth on me.

How brittle relationship can be, how practical can one be, how selfish can an individual be... I must have been living a dream for 20 years...A dream I wish I can continue on for life.

I miss you.

Day 2: Summit!

Part 2. Day 2. Summit.

2D1N Daejeon

Destination: Daejeon
Purpose: Mountain climbing and Joyce farewell trip
Date: 17/10- 18/10

Needless to say, I kinda fulfil my 'crave' to climb mountain. haha but this only left me wanting to climb higher and more mountains!! =D

The higher you climb, the nicer the scenery...^^


I have to give credits to my beloved shoes.

In the cable car. Too bored so I must selca. ^^

Waiting for cable.

I'm going to the summit tml!! MUST! Day1 the sun sets early (6pm) and we do not want to get lost in the mountain. haha so we turned back and took last cable down.

The early sunset at 6pm...

Suspended bridge.

Autumn!

Our hotel.

Endocrinology Mid Term

Yea! Finished my Endo mid term on MOn 26/10.



So long since I updated my blog... I M BUSY! Haha I can imagine my sister voice nagging at me.



Anw mid term for endo is not bad. Just that the lecturer change the format LAST MIN. I got the paper and a shock.



5qns choose 3 to 8qns choose 5. I knew how to answer all the qns but felt that I could have done better if I am more hardworking and not distracted. haha BUT HOW TO?!

Pei ye...Self discipline!! Whad has that gone to....Hm...I still rem my last 2 yrs working+studying...Oh my... I must find back that spirit.

So I decided to buy FRIED CHICKEN to celeb. haha I have a craving since last week. Chicken is a luxury here! I wanted only 1 piece but auntie say NO. Must buy 4 for KRW 6000 >.<

Isang. How to finish 4 by myself?

I ate 2 for dinner and kept 2 for today's lunch =D Thrifty yea? Honestly I find nothing wrong with eating overnight food. Its not as if its stale. Haha pharmacology says DOSE-DEPENDENT.

Joyce has returned to Spore so most of the time I'm alone at home with ah ma. Hm...did I mention she increase the rental by additional KRW10,000? >.<

Ok, I shall blog about our farewell trip with Joyce to Daejeon and I climbed the 1st mountain in Korea =D

Tata~~^^

Anything but black

In lab. The weather is cold but my blood boils at 100 celcius.

You make me discriminate you.

I am totally disgusted by your actions.

Lazy, talk big, airhead, and most importantly, YOU ARE A KING.

One who folds your arms and do nothing.

Argh!! I AM SO ANGRY!! I NEED TO VENT MY ANGER -SOMEWHERE before I might just explode.

I swear I did not discriminate you AT FIRST SIGHT. BUT! You dig your own grave.

Blardy idiot!!!!! I really hate it when he stands so close to me!! I can SMELL the STENCH.

Not to mention his digusting 'color-wolf' protuding belly from his OVERLY SMALL sweatshirts.

Dear friends, pls pass me a revolver and I will make Korea's first uni killing.

Maybe I should do this in a more scientific way....chlorofoam or everyday drip some EtBR onto his bag.

Alright, let me dream over this tonight and I'll tell you the good news.

I hate things which are BLACK IN COLOR. So, pls fuck off.

PS: His wife is trying to apply to SNU too...shit. 1+1 = Doomsday.

Flu or Homesick

Would you rather flu or homesick?


The thing I dread most is flu- in a foreign country.

The weather is getting so cold that wearing shorts with leggings no longer works =(




~ If I force myself to stop thinking, will there be peace~

Down with Flu

Yoohoo! I am back! Haha these few days were busy and the weather is so cold =(

Ok. I finished my report and I am sick for 2 days. I hate sorethroats!

Went for conference in Yangjae and COEX. Quite enriching except for those in korean.

Inflammation, NF-kB, TGF-B, COX2. I like the research my lab is working on now but it will be much better if it was in English.... =(

Time to discuss with my prof regarding my project. I can do experiments either using mice or cell-based. Using mice is a new challenge for me and its kinda cruel... Cell based assay produce results faster and its humane?

What defines humane actually? Why is using LAB mice for cancer research a cruelty towards animal? What about domesticated livestocks? Aint they too, are breed to be eaten?

Humans are ironic.

I just feel that lab animals shld b treated w a certain level of repsect. You should have seen how the bangla feed the mice with the treatment. Makes me so pissed. A murderer. The mice are not BORN to DIE. They sacrifice for what we termed- cancer research.

Hm...why am I writing abt lab mice? haha it just comes suddenly. I'm begining to think I'm getting 'bipolar' disorder. 1 moment I can be so noisy and the next, silence.

A~ Isang.

But at times, I really wish to get to a place with only me and the trees or ocean. Oh did I mention that I was really stressed up and I went to the park near my hse. Well...more like a little mountain. The stretch of uncemented path, the trees and the cold wind helped me to straighten my thoughts.

I need to find myself back. ..

Day 3: Chuncheon Soyong Lake

Wow. I din noe I kept this under EDIT for such a long time. haha ok this is Day 3 to So yong Lake.

Dakgalbi.

Jeon. My fav =D

Day 2- Last day in Gapyeong

Time flies. Holiday came to an end.

I plummet unwillingly back into reality -an alien research student.

I hope after 2-3 years of graduation, I'd saved enough to travel to exotic countries like Alaska, Turkey, Greece, Africa, Nepal (Himalayas!! I hope to climb it..duh...Nt the Everest of course), perform voluntary work and write my encounters down. This shall be my motivation for now.

I like the non-fiction 'Into the Wild' by Jon Krakauer. I will do it different from Mc Candless because my first fear is: HUNGER second is: Penniless.

How nice would it be to wander into the wilderness and explore sights one might not even have a chance in a lifetime?

Dumped the mobile and laptop.

I do not like ppl to contact me while I'm on a holiday. haha I will switch my mobile off and I will contact you just a matter of time. haha this make my sister freaked out during my Mt Kinabalu trip. She dreamt that I DIED (well, almost did! Haha I know you're gng to say I'm action agn).

Sorry sis, but I can't kick this habit away. This isang habit of mine is not that I can put in words. I can only say...freedom?

Sometimes not having a mobile isn't that bad afterall.

Its suffocating for me in concrete jungles.

Maybe I have my dad's gene?

My post are random, aren't they? haha emotions & thoughts came while writing so I'll drift frm the main. OK! So, we depart on 3rd day morning 12pm and our train back to Seoul is 7+pm. We decided to go to Namchuncheon for sightseeing.

Waiting for departure to Namchuncheon.

L-> R: 198cm Wenbin (Vincent), me, Lulu (ZW) and our host's son who can speak Jap. He is the one who brought us ard during our 2nd day. Great hospitality =D

I realise my frens come in stark contrast- Xiao hei and xiao bai. Super tall and not very tall? haha if I have a chance, I will want a grp pic. =D

Our dinner in Valleystar sik dang. Peking duck erm....Korean style.

On our way to Gapyeong train station.

No high rise!

Recreational corner in Valleystar.

Our room is the 1st on the 1st lvl.

Lousy cameraman. I like this kiddo to bits! He is so quiet and so cute. haha noona is not a pedophile.

As usual, the generous spread of pan chans.

Servings for 3. I cant remb how much...ard 40,000-60,000.

I can't resist dogs too! Btw eating dog meat is illegal in Korea.

Day 2: Le Petit France- Beethovan Virus

On ne voit bien qu'avec le cœur. L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux.
(It is only with the heart that one can see rightly. What is essential is invisible to the eye.)

Beethovan Virus MBC drama filming site. No...I did not watch the drama but was told that it is another star-crossed tearjerker. The male actor is kinda cute though. haha. Anw! I have lost interest in K-drama and am more interested in TVB!! How I miss Cantonese!!

Le Petit France as its name explains, is a tourist spot located on the mountain. I did not know there were so many turns and bends. Giddy... And it was stuffy inside the car. Almost puked but haha I am improving! =) Novomin only for those treacherous routes!

The place is beautiful and with the pastel drawings of the Little Prince around the site creates a fairytale ambience.

Entrance is KRW8000.

Exquisite porcelain ware. Immediately I thought of xiao pang and her dishes...boohoo! =(

How I wish I can draw this instead of stickman...

Creator of Little Prince. hm...I think so..

Konglish really amuse me. Bbue ddi peu rang seu...=D

So cute!

Old French style toilette.

I forgot how to play Romance de Amour... I miss my piano... =(

"It is the time you have spent with your rose that makes your rose so important."

I just need to escape from reality for AWHILE.

Tranquility.

I am laughing coz I did not break the MINI wooden stool!! Haha =D

How can you not love pastel color and this drawing!! =D

Happy me- sad onlookers ^o^

Endnote: I like this place but feel its a tad touristy.