Letter to me

Dear Diary,

The wind chime outside my window tinkles softly. The trees are green all year round. Nothing has changed- much.

''It is not cold anymore. Spring is coming.'' I read on a Seoul meetup website. I must have too much time on hand in Spore that so much is going through my head when I read this. Time pass really fast. Soon 2 yrs will be up and I'll be returning to where all my dreams originated.

A part of me don't want to return. It feels like I've worked hard to achieve what I have- the freedom, the new sights, the independence, the feeling of accomplishment...I don't want them to end- not so soon.

When season changes, the trees become bare, the cold wind chill your spine mercilessly, no sight of life. I hate the cold, hate the dull sky, hate the early dusk but when I begin to find my own way of liking this season, it ends. An analogy to my 2yrs stay. Maybe when I begin to feel comfy, I need to leave this dream....

People change (yes,my weight included haha). Many times I cannot admit the fact that I want to run away. Far away. To escape all the daggers unknowingly thrown to us, to escape all the superficiality, to be true to myself.

The grey region sucked me in like a whirlpool. I need to get out- fast.

Nobody admits. Everybody hides. Everybody doubts. I can smile, laugh and joke but thoughts tucked deep beneath cannot be erased, only hidden. Those thoughts and sights resurfaced. I have a million questions but they will never be answered.

I just hope people are not so selfish and understands that this affects me too. Nobody understands.

I will be like a fish out of water if I don't find myself back. I cannot cling on old memories to live. I pursue my dreams and create new memories as I live.

When will yesterday is back again?

Everything needs to have a balance.

I hope like the season, after the heartless winter we can feel spring's love again...No matter how long it takes, I'll wait and hope for that day. That is when I can stop worrying and face everyone truely. That is when the skies are clear and nobody cries. That is when I will stop escaping.

Seasons change expectedly but humans, unexpectedly...

I have another new dream to pursue, to go abroad again....

Sincerely,

Yours.

七年 by Alex Fong & Stephy Teng

Their new 2009 duet which I've been waiting for so long since 十分爱.

Alex Fong has a good vocal and is surely an eye candy too which makes all their MV interesting.

But he did not really starred in his MV. He directed it. The MV aint very nice coz the actors inside are erm...weird and I don't like the story line.

PS: Go watch Alex Fong's movie. For all his duet with Stephy, they produced movies with similar headings. So nice.

Not forgetting he was a national swimmer and graduated frm HKU. Talking about an all-rounder who is cute!!! *o*

Lost luggage

and I lost my 1 of my luggage on my way back to Singapore. What a way to start off the CNY!

Anw, I am sorry that I blew my top and lost my patience. Its just...unbelievable. haha I mean who the hell lose their luggage?!

Well yes. Your dear friend CPY does everything that doesn't happen to NORMAL travellers. Miss flight, miss boat, miss bus, lost USD and all my taiwan cash in LA and now after a 3yrs hiatus, I lost my luggage adding to the jinxed list.

Am I just jinxed during travelling or what? Or am I an airhead that all these can happen? Alright maybe both. I need like a device tag on ALL of my belonging and maybe an electrocute-you alarm clock since normal ones don't work.

I cried. Tears of anguish and shocked. haha I think I shocked all the custom officers and the flight attendent. I vent my anger on the poor shark. But well, you can'tblame me. haha I need someone to direct the anger and fault to before I finally cool down and think about this issue again.

This is me. Nothing is my fault initially. Is that why they say you have higher expectations of each other?

What is inside the baggage:

1. Red ginseng concentrate extract KRW 79,000
2. Skin food purchases for PF KRW 70,000
3. Limited edition F21 skirt which I bought to wear during my stay in Sin KRW 29,000
4. All comestics and nail polish for friends KRW 80,000
5. All cookies and chocolates KRW 59,000

This is fate. The ultimate punishment for a shopaholic.

To sharkie: Did you remember you said you'll bring me shopping & pay for my purchases?? Haha Don't think I forget!! I am coming back on 27th to claim my reimbursement =)

I'll write more on my CNY in Singapore!

PS: The purpose of this post is to find out who are my TRUE friends. haha those who choose souvenirs over ME can excuse themselves. And I REALLY don't like ppl to ask if I REALLY lost it or just that I did not buy.

This is NOT a joke to me.

I'm serious.

Happy CNY folks! And SG is really HOT! I hate ba****a

High1 Ski Resort

Location: High1 Ski resort in Gangwon Island.

Gangwondo is supposed to be the coldest place in Korea and has the first snowfall. Maybe due to its most northern location beside the Sorak Mountains.

Upon reaching there, only 1 word to describe: COLD + Trembling.

Departed on Friday after sharkie end his work. Why I don't have to report to lab? aha remember I have 2weeks off due to lab renovation!

Took a train to Express bus terminal and bought tickets to erm, somewhere in Gangwondo. 3hrs bus journey. It was already 10pm by the time we reached. Checked into the motel just beside the bus terminal. So we can bought a bus to High1 immediately the next morning.

haha remember about my previous post on the motels near SNU station? Well, suprinsingly motels in those suburban areas are very nice and big and most importantly ECONOMICAL. haha KRW 30,000- 50,000 per night. The only down side is some of the rooms smell of cigarette. Koreans love to smoke.

The ones we stayed in gangwon and taebaek area are not bad. No smoky smell. But once night approaches, those little hooligans come out and play. Quite dangerous if you are roaming ard by yourself.

High1 ski is superb! The slopes are dam it long and I took 1hr for my 1st snowboard down.

From peak of 1425m to the base! Woohoo! Ultimate happiness and pain. =)

The lift ride up is chilly. VERY chilly. Sharkie is afraid of heights and squirms around, don't dare to look at the beautiful scenery. Lousy! =D

The view is breathtaking. Snow-capped firs trees, pine trees... I LOVE WINTER SPORTS!

Conquered all the beginner slopes(Zeus) and I'm so happy! Haha don't laugh at me coz I don't wear skiing gear bt only a pink stocking!

PS: High1 has cute ski petrol! =D =D But of course, my sharkie is cuter! wahaha! So here's a cute pic of him for you to enjoy *o*
Oliver Twist in distress.
Look at the long white slopes behind us. For those experts.

The base.
''Dare you challenge me?'' He risked my frostbite fingers to take this pic =(
Yes, we skiied frm 1130am till dusk falls.
Here I come!
Pippi long stocking off to sb!
The queue is ridiculously long.

My only hope of riding in a sled is gone when I saw this =(
The rob-a-bank condos and hotels. Min 250,000KRW/night.
Lift and gondola pass.
Onboard the lift to the summit. Winter makes ur pores small! =D
The entrance.

Practising my Left and Right turn + brake.

My sunshine! =D

Why do I see the chef there? Beats me. haha maybe collect natural snow water for his atas revolving restaurant on the summit. We wanted to dine at the rest but 1. Ex. 2. No time.

Beginner slope.

See! The motel has flat screen PC with free internet. Not to mention the free ride up to High1 ski resort volunteered by the motel's owner.

The uber clean toilet with pretty tiles and a whole 500ml shampoo and bath cream for you to use. Unlike those mini sized hotel toiletries. haha aint I loving these cute motels?

PS: But if I have the money, I would love to stay in the ski resort condo and try night skiing. =(

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